Christmas Life

My Christmas is so much like my life–contemplative

and a bit messy around the edges. I read about adventures

and new recipes, then I pull out my 40-year-old sauce pan

and make the same fudge from memory. Ancient on repeat

seems to be the default bell, jingling from the wings of an old

angel atop the tree. My favorite aunt mailed me fudge once

and I was so touched and homesick and filled with good. She knew

she was dying, and although she had not spoken the word to me, I knew it, too. I can’t really recreate the beauty that has passed before me

but I can remember and I can go through the motions, stirring and stirring until something in my heart begins to taste. Isn’t that what Christmas is all about–the feeble attempt to share the unbeknownst? Bonhoeffer tells me faith requires a first step of obedience and in the same breath obedience requires faith. There is no first ingredient to the formula. Salvation is like a train that a man running hard away from himself can jump on at any time and at any place, and the miracle is, he will squarely find himself again. He might run or he might stay. He might place his head down on the tracks, then pull away at the last possible moment. He might stand in a long, civilized line and purchase a roundtrip ticket in first class with a sleeping car and chicken with wine. What is faith, really, but the idea of no idea?

A baby? A manger? An unusual star? Do I dare believe this? Open the box. Taste. See.

By Prof. Snell

Poetry is my thing!

3 replies on “Christmas Life”

Faith?….hmmm?? Without “defining” faith I can give you results of faith….results such as when my bride permanently leaves this earth while my family has been reassured she is with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, whom we celebrate his birth this month. FAITH?…Hmmm? Without the birth there is no Easter (RESURRECTION); without that glorious happening there is no faith and many will lose hope……So, Faith?…Hmmm? without HOPE how can I have faith??
I HOPE you respond..(.different HOPE entirely). Recently, I really “cooked” for the first time since 9/1st…not just buying and eating or heating something from freezer….there were tears of cooking…haha…not from pealing the onion…not from frustration of changing receipe….but, using so many items Jaymie used as she cooked and sang and cooked and chatted and cooked and made phone calls and cooked…..! (BTW–Christian Formation Group said I “cooked” very well)…..will never achieve greatness like Jaymie’s cooking….but, a novice has to have “HOPE” (in more than just cooking)…for one day I will join that family of believers in Heaven and then the New Earth….not hopeless but hopeful through FAITH.
God Bless!
Dave O.


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